Ok, my picture is the Logo I was going to use to launch my digital designs. Was? you ask? Well I guess I'm posting this because I need your support. I took this class because I absolutely love Jessica Sprague's inspiration, style, etc.. and I wanted to learn more. I did learn more, I did enjoy it tremendously.. but every since the first day that class started (it's over now), I have not digitally or paper scrapped one page, I have not wanted to do anything because I feel guilty because I should be working on my kit for submission, then taking the certification exam.. I can't scrap or do anything else because I feel like I should be doing that instead. I am not a quitter. That being said... I have found that I don't really enjoy the designing aspect as much as the creating the memories/keepsakes. I don't care who made the paper, embellishments, etc.. I had so much fun making the layouts and creating a story for my kids that this has kind of taken away from that enjoyment. So.... my friends.. I am asking you for your permission to move on. Take the pressure off of me. I don't have to get certified.. I never wanted to "Sell" in the first place.. I don't have to create the ultimate kit for submission... I learned a lot, I can make a kit if I want to, I can make papers, embellishments... but it's ok to stop and go back to enjoying this craft and not making it a job. I haven't even been posting on my blog as regular because if I sit at the computer I have this nagging feeling that no... You shouldn't be working on blogs.. you've got a deadline. I don't want my love, my craft to be a job.. I just don't. I have a 8-5 job that I get paid for. I have a 24/7 mom job that I love.. I want my craft to be my special place that I do just for me. I know I'm rambling.. any maybe I'm trying to talk myself into the fact that it's ok to take what I've learned and move on. I just feel like such a cop out. I know I can pass the test, I know I can do the kit well.. I just don't want to. Am I being stupid? I hate that I haven't created anything. It's like the class sucked out my mojo.. I want my MOJO.. I like my MOJO.. :) On the J. Sprague board I posted something kind of similiar a couple weeks ago and they all said take the test, get your certification or you will regret it. I am just not happy that it's sucked the creativeness out of me. I don't want to feel guilty or pressure to do the one thing in my life that is 100% mine and 100% relaxing for me. Am I being selfish? Lazy?... please I can't explain it, but either A) I take the test, submit the kit and move on.. or B) let it go and go back to what I love without the guilt that I gave up. (but what did I give up on, really? ).... oy vey! I know.. this is not a "REAL" problem in life.. but I need you, my friends, to give me your honest opinions.. what would you do?
Oh Lorrie, decisions decisions. I would do A then let it go and go back to what you love. You've gained the knowledge from the class and you may use it in the future. I'm with you...If I did it for a job I wouldn't enjoy scrapping as much as I do. It's my total escape from reality. No pressure.
ReplyDeleteI agree, let it go and don't feel guilty, because you KNOW you can do it, you have learned alot, but you don't want to take the joy out of scrapping... I hate it when I have decisions like this to make. Good luck deciding. AND yes I would love your "flat me".. I can't find your email to send you my address. Thank you so much.
ReplyDeleteLorrie, I can totally understand how you are feeling. I say if you don't want to do it then don't. You know you can do all the stuff you learned and why let it take your mojo. Sorry if I put any pressure on you to see our kit. Go take a few days and just relax and then come back and scrap for you and your family. Hugs my friend. :)
ReplyDeleteoops a little mistake, I meant your kit not our. LOL
ReplyDeleteOh, how I know that feeling. After half a century (a little more actually) I have finally learned that it's okay not to want to do something---AND THEN NOT DO IT!! When is a person finally old enough to do what you "want" and not what is expected, or best, or what you should do? The time is now. Do what you want and what feels best for you. You learned a lot, enjoyed it, but that doesn't mean you have to take that last step. And I really don't want to finish those dishes today. LOL (I enjoy your blog daily and you have done some great projects)
ReplyDeletemove on girl life is too short.
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