Friday, July 16, 2010
Ok, my picture is the Logo I was going to use to launch my digital designs. Was? you ask? Well I guess I'm posting this because I need your support. I took this class because I absolutely love Jessica Sprague's inspiration, style, etc.. and I wanted to learn more. I did learn more, I did enjoy it tremendously.. but every since the first day that class started (it's over now), I have not digitally or paper scrapped one page, I have not wanted to do anything because I feel guilty because I should be working on my kit for submission, then taking the certification exam.. I can't scrap or do anything else because I feel like I should be doing that instead. I am not a quitter. That being said... I have found that I don't really enjoy the designing aspect as much as the creating the memories/keepsakes. I don't care who made the paper, embellishments, etc.. I had so much fun making the layouts and creating a story for my kids that this has kind of taken away from that enjoyment. So.... my friends.. I am asking you for your permission to move on. Take the pressure off of me. I don't have to get certified.. I never wanted to "Sell" in the first place.. I don't have to create the ultimate kit for submission... I learned a lot, I can make a kit if I want to, I can make papers, embellishments... but it's ok to stop and go back to enjoying this craft and not making it a job. I haven't even been posting on my blog as regular because if I sit at the computer I have this nagging feeling that no... You shouldn't be working on blogs.. you've got a deadline. I don't want my love, my craft to be a job.. I just don't. I have a 8-5 job that I get paid for. I have a 24/7 mom job that I love.. I want my craft to be my special place that I do just for me. I know I'm rambling.. any maybe I'm trying to talk myself into the fact that it's ok to take what I've learned and move on. I just feel like such a cop out. I know I can pass the test, I know I can do the kit well.. I just don't want to. Am I being stupid? I hate that I haven't created anything. It's like the class sucked out my mojo.. I want my MOJO.. I like my MOJO.. :) On the J. Sprague board I posted something kind of similiar a couple weeks ago and they all said take the test, get your certification or you will regret it. I am just not happy that it's sucked the creativeness out of me. I don't want to feel guilty or pressure to do the one thing in my life that is 100% mine and 100% relaxing for me. Am I being selfish? Lazy?... please I can't explain it, but either A) I take the test, submit the kit and move on.. or B) let it go and go back to what I love without the guilt that I gave up. (but what did I give up on, really? ).... oy vey! I know.. this is not a "REAL" problem in life.. but I need you, my friends, to give me your honest opinions.. what would you do?