Day 25, 2010

My mother never bought herself anything. I mean we had to beg her to buy anything for herself. She showered us with more than we ever needed, but when it came to herself she always found a reason not to. A year before she passed away she had kept saying she wanted a cross necklace (she was dying from cancer at the time and I think it renewed her belief in her church and religion). We were Christmas shopping for the kids (she had wanted to get each of her grandchildren a piece of jewelry or something they could keep to remind them of her since it was going to be her last Christmas with us). We saw this necklace and she loved it. After much convincing she finally bought it saying "well, I know I won't wear it for long and it will be yours, Lorrie when I'm gone". I wear it everyday, it always reminds me of her. She was the most unselfish, giving woman I've ever known. I miss her everyday. The funny thing is, it's come unclasped a few times and each time it's fallen right in front of me. I just replaced the clasp this past weekend, but I always felt like she was making sure I didn't lose it.